I am pleased for we are done with our product shoots and it turn out so good, & rachelle with the dead fish. I feel bad cause i left the whole hse in a mess with water everywhere & kitchen with fish stuff. Nw mum is cleaning up all the mess. Thats why i nv like doin all this at hm but well we have no other alternative.

I need Him yet i feel like i'm losing Him. I dnt feel like attending cells, dnt feel like attending outings & nw worst i dread sunday service. Tell me why pls. I knw all along He is ther for me. But i feel crap.

now talking abt crap, i think i am the worst person ever. Pls call me a bitch, i will gladly accept it but when can i quit this shit. I'm always getting myself into some shit, seriously. & its been so long, & for so long i have been lying. I dont want her to feel that she can confine in me when i am doing all this to her. I dnt knw! Like i always say my life is a drama & i think this is the worst shit i have ever get myself into.

i am zoning out from everything. i want a get away. i wanna go travelling alone and i hope dad is gonna let me go Melbourne to find cousin this coming holiday. Its nt abt being emo anywa, i think its fun.

i wanted to go for a run, but i am too full from dinner an hr ago. & i bet mum is nt gonna let me go running this hr. she would think the bloody terrorist is gonnaa come and catch me but i will be more den willing to see him. I hope he get throw into the jail & nv see the world again.

Lastly i pray for my dearest mp3 to be revived. IT IS NOT WORKING. my 4 yrs buddy, dnt leave me just like that.